Blessed

this past week has been probably one of the best weeks for me, both spiritually and artistically. i performed at MOCA, my baby cousin Eka was born, i got closer to God, i made the audition i tryed out for! everything is just finaly falling into place for me, this is amazing. Glory be to God.

Today

today i felt like murdering something. i don't mean to scare anybody though. so i'll just say "just kidding" even though i'm not. i was so angry, and i don't get angry. which scares me. oh well, i'm cool now. blah,blah,blah.

regrets

within the past week, i have written two posts that i never published. i don't want to regret publishing them. i wish i posted them, but whatever. i need an outlet, maybe i'll write today. peace

MOCA2

M E T A P H O R I A:
Spoken Word at MOCA
Presented by LAartlab

Featuring contemporary emerging and established poets
from Los Angeles and Chicago including:

Luis Alfaro ∙ Linda Gamboa ∙ Dante Mitchell,
Kelly Zen-Yie Tsai ∙ April Rose Rojas ∙ Alex Narango
Karla Diaz ∙ Ruth Mendez “V” ∙ J.I.G.G.S.A.W.
Liz Haro ∙ Monique Mitchell ∙ Desiree Summerville
and others.

Museum of Contemporary Art
Thursday July 23, 2009
6:00pm - 7:30pm
250 South Grand Street
Los Angeles CA 90012

Admission is free to the event and Museum, arrive early and check out the galleries!
Parking available at various lots around the Museum starting at $5

<3

so, i've come to the sad, sad realization that me and pharrell won't be getting married. lol i'm pretty sure he won't like the 19 year gap. lol [i'm a psycho for this] but anywho, me and justin nozuka will be getting married now, so it's all goodie=)

Shel Silverstein

well, you guys pretty much know that i love poetry. i love finding out about new authors. well, old authors, that are new to me. lol but i'm gonna talk about Shel. i loved all of his books when i was a little girl. just like when harry potter came out, i begged my parental unit to buy the whole coolection for me. i thought i was just so poetic reading "Falling Up" or "Where the Sidewalk Ends". lol. that was in 6th grade when i finally got the whole collection i believe. anyway, my friend Lola was like "i don't really like Shel Silverstein, he's not serious enough", or something like that. lol i remember after hearing her say that, i wanted to write serious poems. of course, the poems i came up with, i thought they were terribly horrible. i sucked basically. then i got much older, and started writing like for real. i still thought i sucked, the only difference was i shared my poems with people, and strange thing happened, they liked them! so now, people call me a "poet". =) nice little story right? i love Shel, and the kid that lived in him.

“"There Is A Voice Inside Of YouThat Whispers All Day Long,"I Feel That This Is Right For Me,I Know That This Is Wrong."No Teacher, Preacher, Parent, FriendOr Wise Man Can DecideWhat's Right For You- Just Listen ToThe Voice That Speaks Inside."”-Shel Silverstein

YIKES!

so, while reading one of my bestfriend's blog (vicaria, down since 6th grade. lol), i realized that i'm actually a senior now. the thought kind of scares me. i can NOT mess up this year. i get lazy at times, but this year, that won't be acceptable.

multi-faceted

that's the word i was looking for in the previous post. lol my BESTFRIEND just made me think of my post, and then i thought of a word that fits the description i was trying to give.

About Me

"about me? i don't sleep with my hands or feet hanging off my bed because i think a monster might snatch me." -me=)
ok but seriously, this is what i was gonna say. i'm so...idk the word..... ok, nevermind. lol (i apparently don't plan what im gonna write, i just write)
i was trying to say that i'll listen to only like one song for a week or weeks if i really like it, then i'll switch up and listen to something totally different. lol i'll listen to something soft and smooth, then switch up to a rap song. haha that's just funny to me. ok, peace=) (this was a totally unecessary post)

Anais Nin

I just found out about this woman. she is incredible! i love her already=)

“I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.”

MOCA!

me and my brother have been invited to perform at the MOCA (musuem of contemporary art). i am just truly, truly thankful for the oppurtunities that i have been given. i thank God every day for everything he is allowing me to do=) some days i can't even believe it. oh yeah, for all you kanye & pharrell lovers, you all know takashi murakami, right? he had an exhibit there! crazy! i'm so blessed=)

ideas vs. fact

i believe that in our world, ideas are more important to people than fact. for example, factually, everyone is beautiful, but everyone is not ideally beautiful.
we choose to run with preconceived ideas, instead finding out and discovering our own truths. we should grow up accepting only what we believe to be true for us, and rejecting what we don't.



the whole concept of "truth" is very interesting to me. i can write about it all day, but today is not that day.

Blessed!

Man, i feel incredibly joyful. i don't know what has gotten into me, but today i just felt so grateful and thankful for everything that is happening in my life. the Lord has really blessed me, and i just feel like i want to tell the whole world about Him. i know it's never been cool for a teenager to talk about God, but i really don't care! lol. The Lord has bleesed me so much, i have so many oppurtunities just lying at my feet, and it's all because of Him, real talk. everything that i am doing, im only able to do it because of God. Thank You Lord, i love you so much!

"when you look at what the Lord has done for me, you are looking at what the LOrd can do for you."-Me[monique mitchell] lol

Daddy<3

my daddy told me that he was proud of me, and that he was lcuky to be my father.
with those words being said, nothing else in this world matter. Nothing. i have only wanted to make him proud because no matter what he has done, he is still my daddy, and i love him. i'm the lucky one.

he comes home in october=] haha i won't have to press "5" to talk to him anymore. smh. lol

A Long Way Gone:

Memoirs of a Boy Soldier.

reading this for AP English. it's good so far. i know it is gonna be great.

Creepy Quiz

ahh, so this is a quiz result from a facbook quiz i took out of boredom. lol the reason it's creepy is because it's true. haha

The Cusp of Exposure – Leo/Virgo Cusp August 19-25
You are an interesting blend of introvert and extrovert. You are an outstanding observer and judge of character. You know how to watch, silently without drawing attention to yourself. You have a great memory and are objective; you can also be a dependable and reliable friend. You have the need to be understood. You do not easily attach your passion and affection to someone but when you do you form long lasting relationships. You can be very private, self centered and secretive. Strengths: Self Contained – Observant – Flamboyant Weaknesses: Narcissistic – Secretive – Non Sharing